This is what was put in my journal the night I moved in with my host family:
28 Juin 2010
I feel terrible today. It's a continuation of the feeling from yesterday. Sick-Churning-Stomach-Weak (from not eating) and just tired.
I wasn't ready at all. I'm at my host family and I'm in bed. I just want to cry.
Yea - apparently I was not happy. What made it a little worse - other trainees had a marvelous time with their host family and were telling such amazing stories of how accommodating their family was - and how much they sat with their host mother and father and just discussed life - well, to their best ability.
It was brutal.